So I know everyone goes through phases where they just don't have a lot of motivation to get anything accomplished. But lately (and when I say lately I mean for months really) I have had such a seriously lack of motivation to not only accomplish things but just do anything in general.

I think it started when I realized I really have no idea what I want to do with my life. The job I am currently at ends at the end of April and I have to find a new one for May (by rules of my co-op program) but I do not want to. I don't want to get a new job, I don't want this job, I don't really want to go back to school (but I do in the sense that it takes me one step closer to being done school). Then after that I have no idea.

I have decided to go travel. I need a break. Once I realized I didn't know what I was doing with my life I figured out I could actually take some time to enjoy it. Everything has been so go go go since high school. Graduate, go to university, graduate university, go to med school (the plan I had at the time) and then that would be it. I'd have my career the rest of my life would be planned out.

Until I realized I didn't know if I wanted to go to med school. Or vet school. Or law school. Or any of the option I had previously considered. Now I am thinking, maybe I want to be a teacher (I really liked high school biology, and I like teaching people things) and that would certainly be a lot cheaper to accomplish.

Just thinking about all this is dizzying, especially when at the present moment I can barely make myself get out of bed to walk my dog. Which I will do now. Or soon.

I just want to stay in bed all day (every day) and eat and watch TV and go on the internet. Is that so wrong?

-- Miranda 

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